What even...

Do you know what I find particularly exciting?
nothing.
Nothing at all. If it was up to me. I would never do anything at all. I'd lay around all day and all night. and I know, that's lazy how could you ever do that? just never do anything. I'm sure you'd get bored.
Well yes I would get bored. but I live a boring life. it's not like I'm doing anything anyway. I'm sitting here on a couch, maybe sometimes a chair or a bed and I go to about 5 different websites and I just end up hitting refresh over and over waiting for someone to talk to. and usually that doesn't end up happening. So I give up and then I close my computer and then I just sit and listen to music. I don't listen to music while I do something. I listen to music and I stair at the ceiling or the wall or I close my eyes.

Now, I understand this sounds, well, sad. like I need friends or something. But actually, when I have friends over, I usually make them do the same thing. I don't like talking to people very much. I mean. I will, I'll talk to people, when there's something to talk about. But, usually, no one has anything to say. Something needs to get done, okay it's done now what? small talk?
hey. how are you? that's cool. I'm good. Yep. 
And then it's over. no one ever knows what to say next. You could expand it, how was school/work/your day? but really, you're just torturing yourself more. and everyone has those days when they just want to talk about nothing or talk about silly things. I mean I have those days. but, they don't happen often.
I just like to sit and absorb. sit and listen, watch, learn. You can learn a lot about something without even speaking. I'm not trying to start a new thing of no one ever speaking to anyone. It's awesome to have a good time and talk and yell and tell stories but there's a point you reach when you just get to sit without talking and it's less stressful than actually trying to make something happen.
Just something to think about.
Anyway, here's a good song to sit and just zone out to.

Have fun not talking.