So where have you been?

It's not that I've been avoiding keeping up, This was supposed to be done before I went to sleep late at night.
Then I got on a slightly average sleeping schedule and I was taking a driving class.
Yeah, a driving class, because at 18 I still didn't have a driver's license.
Story Time!
When I was 15 I was super excited about getting my permit. I had to be 15 and 6 months to get it though. I thought, yeah I can wait, it's really no big deal. Then that day rolled around. That would mean, the 29th of December. So. I couldn't get it. So I waited. and waited. Then I took it one random day and failed. on a  sign.

 

That sign.

I thought that the lines were roads instead of the space between them. I was upset. So the I had to wait 14 days. But I ended up just waiting. and waiting. and waiting. Until soon, it was the summer before my senior year. I took the written test and passed. No big deal. But you have to have your learners permit for 9 months before you can get your license. and by 9 months I was in college. 6 hours away from home. I couldn't take the behind the wheel class. So like a month ago I searched around and found a place that I could sign up and take the hours I need and last week I finally got my license. A month before my 19th birthday. isn't that delightful?

So lately that's what I've been up to.

For the love of carbs

I like asking questions.
Not like, during class or whatever, and not even about anything relevant. Just questions about anything.
Like today I asked how my mom learned all of the drinks when she became a bartender back in the day. Then I asked him if he had abs when he was in the Marines. I just find stuff like that interesting. I like having people tell me information.
Useless stuff that could never be useful for anything else. because sometimes it might be useful.
Like once, my dad was talking to me on the phone. And I was half listening like usual because he usually says the same things every time he calls me. He tells the same stories and goes to the same topics. Every time. Guaranteed. Anyway, I was trying to fold laundry and he was talking to me about old movies. Because I bought him Legend (the one with Tom Cruise from back in the day) and he was saying how when that movie came out, it wasn't very big or something I don't know. But he said that the same thing happened with the Rocky Horror Picture Show. When it first came out in theaters, no one really wanted to see it. But now It's like some big thing and there's like a cult thing going on.
Then in my Anthropology class we were talking about trends or music that gets passed from country to country and someone was saying that a product or a fad has to be big when it comes out or it wont be passed around and I was like, oh ho ho my dad said the Rocky Horror Picture Show wasn't big when it came out and now everyone talks about it. I mean there was even a Glee episode dedicated to it.

Pretty crazy stuff.

So yeah, you never know when something useless can become useful. And I like stuff like that. I like to look at weird stuff about movies or actors that's completely useless. I think that kind of stuff is interesting.

What even...

Do you know what I find particularly exciting?
nothing.
Nothing at all. If it was up to me. I would never do anything at all. I'd lay around all day and all night. and I know, that's lazy how could you ever do that? just never do anything. I'm sure you'd get bored.
Well yes I would get bored. but I live a boring life. it's not like I'm doing anything anyway. I'm sitting here on a couch, maybe sometimes a chair or a bed and I go to about 5 different websites and I just end up hitting refresh over and over waiting for someone to talk to. and usually that doesn't end up happening. So I give up and then I close my computer and then I just sit and listen to music. I don't listen to music while I do something. I listen to music and I stair at the ceiling or the wall or I close my eyes.

Now, I understand this sounds, well, sad. like I need friends or something. But actually, when I have friends over, I usually make them do the same thing. I don't like talking to people very much. I mean. I will, I'll talk to people, when there's something to talk about. But, usually, no one has anything to say. Something needs to get done, okay it's done now what? small talk?
hey. how are you? that's cool. I'm good. Yep. 
And then it's over. no one ever knows what to say next. You could expand it, how was school/work/your day? but really, you're just torturing yourself more. and everyone has those days when they just want to talk about nothing or talk about silly things. I mean I have those days. but, they don't happen often.
I just like to sit and absorb. sit and listen, watch, learn. You can learn a lot about something without even speaking. I'm not trying to start a new thing of no one ever speaking to anyone. It's awesome to have a good time and talk and yell and tell stories but there's a point you reach when you just get to sit without talking and it's less stressful than actually trying to make something happen.
Just something to think about.
Anyway, here's a good song to sit and just zone out to.

Have fun not talking.

Hit Play

What's up in-crowd?
It's mother's day or whatever. Irrelevant.

Oh, anyway, at one point I was attempting to become a YouTube vlogger. considering how extremely awkward I am, that failed miserably.

We all see how much of a fail that was.
There's just something about me. I'm terribly terribly awkward.

After that I just decided I would only do that on days when I actually had something to talk about. Which. Was never. So.

I am a little bit of a movie freak. I love watching movies. Not really to like break them down and analyze every little thing about them. But to enjoy them. My favorite kinds of movies are like really bad 90's movies. I don't know what it was about them but 90's movies were just, lacking. But I love them for it. They were awesome in their day. But now they're a joke. So anyway, when I can't sleep, I watch movies. Tonight I watched good Will Hunting. Which I had never seen before now. Which I see now is a crime against humanity or something. Ben Affleck and Matt Damon. I don't actually like your movies too much but I seriously enjoy your face.

Don't even get me started on my favorite actors. 

1. Keanu Reeves (ALWAYS)
2. Leonardo DiCaprio
3. Mark Wahlberg
4. Paul Dano
5. Lukas Haas
6. Josh Lucas 
7. Shia LeBeouf
8. Scott Michael Foster
9. Matthiew Gray Gubler 
10. Joseph Gordon Levitt
11. Johnny Young Bosch

This list goes on for a lifetime.
Actors with awesome accents get an automatic add on. Like Hugh Grant gets an add on because he's awkward and he has a boss accent.  :D
I love awkward actors.
Anyway.
I'm going to stop being a little fan-girl now.
Catch you on the flip flop
Bye

What's up? Let's get started.

So, hey. What's up?
I've just finished my freshman year of college and I'm about to start my summer.
So super craziness, my family has been slowly falling apart, and lately it's been like an avalanche. As a result, I have decided to move in with my older brother near where I go to school. One of the conditions of moving in with him and his family was for me to find a job and actually get my license. So, for the last month or so I have been searching for a job and planning out how to get my license.

Now, I do have my learners permit, I've had it for almost a year, I just never really had the time to take the behind the wheel portion of drivers ed. Or, not really not had the time, I just never really had the motivation to do it. Like when I took my learners permit test. I took it like a month after I turned 15 and 6 months. But, I failed. Yeah, I failed. I missed a sign. But in my defense I just thought the lines were the road not the space between them. So, you know, it's not really that big of a deal. So anyway I failed and I didn't retake the test until the end of my senior year in high school. So then, I had to wait another like, 9 months to get my license because I wasn't 19. But then I went to college so I didn't have the time to get it.

In April I searched and called a bunch of different places that have behind the wheel drivers ed to see if anyone had the time. Like 99% of the people I called never called me back so that was a wash. I finally got lucky though and someone had an opening the week after I got out of school so it was slightly perfect. Then tragedy struck once again, and I needed some sort of certificate of completion which, I probably could have gotten my sophomore year of high school but a year after I graduate? Not so much. So, I had to track that down, but the old lady at the behind the wheel place is totally being nice. Which is super appreciate.

Anywho, I'm still on a hunt for a job. I've applied to a bunch of places but this would be my first job and everyone is looking for someone with experience which I do not have. But I am pretty awesome if I do say so myself. :] It helps that my brother is a headhunter so he knows everything about getting jobs.

Okay so, I'm going to start letting you into my brain for this summer. and if our relationship works out, I may continue. We shall see. So, Enjoy :]